Dictionary.com has been my newfound friend these few days, with the notion that i'd able to make some use out of it with a useless attempt to improve my english. Oh wells, i'll continue trying, like my mum said, "Aiya, language cannot be improved in a day or two, it takes months." As said, i'm having a high enthusiasm to work for it. After the countless times i've let my mum down, be it my deteriorating results, or inconsistent performance, it pains me to let her down another time. Whenever i try so hard, to improve on myself, on my standard, distraction always gets in the way. Being a very naive teenager, obviously, i'd get distracted, and thus forget the importance of studies. I shan't say more, cause everyone's smart enough to know the consequence and outcome of it. Just one word to describe it. BAD.

Well, i've come out of 2009 and currently in the year 2010 with the resolution of excelling in my studies. URHH, is that even possible? I wonder, how all those genius brainiacs are able to produce excellent and the typical results parents desire without fail each and every time. Not everyone's as smart as those brainiacs and i'm one of them. Yes, i know, i've to work doubly hard this time, though i am still having doubts in my abilities. Sigh, though mummy keeps on giving me the continual support, i still have a lack of confidence in myself, seeing the multiple times i've failed and continued failing.

We'll see Aiya, this year. Can you, or can't you? I need to drive and the motivation. I guess, i've gotten them, i just need more, i just need this spark that is able to make me to JUST DO IT.

Dictionary.com has been my newfound friend these few days, with the notion that i'd able to make some use out of it with a useless attempt to improve my english. Oh wells, i'll continue trying, like my mum said, "Aiya, language cannot be improved in a day or two, it takes months." As said, i'm having a high enthusiasm to work for it. After the countless times i've let my mum down, be it my deteriorating results, or inconsistent performance, it pains me to let her down another time. Whenever i try so hard, to improve on myself, on my standard, distraction always gets in the way. Being a very naive teenager, obviously, i'd get distracted, and thus forget the importance of studies. I shan't say more, cause everyone's smart enough to know the consequence and outcome of it. Just one word to describe it. BAD.

Well, i've come out of 2009 and currently in the year 2010 with the resolution of excelling in my studies. URHH, is that even possible? I wonder, how all those genius brainiacs are able to produce excellent and the typical results parents desire without fail each and every time. Not everyone's as smart as those brainiacs and i'm one of them. Yes, i know, i've to work doubly hard this time, though i am still having doubts in my abilities. Sigh, though mummy keeps on giving me the continual support, i still have a lack of confidence in myself, seeing the multiple times i've failed and continued failing.

We'll see Aiya, this year. Can you, or can't you? I need to drive and the motivation. I guess, i've gotten them, i just need more, i just need this spark that is able to make me to JUST DO IT.

Humaira