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Drowning;
Monday, May 10, 2010

I'm not a strong girl.

I'm weak. An understatement.
I'm worse than weak.

I'm weak in everything.
I'm so weak in even controlling myself, what more my emotions.
I'm weak cause I let myself be pushed to the ground.
I'm so weak to stand up on my own.
I'm so weak to contain my tears.
I'm so weak to even believe in myself.

Weak + hopeless = ME

Enough of trying. Why try in the first place, if you don't get anything in the end?

I'm tired of trying, because i'm weak. I'm weak because no one believes in me. No one really cares, and NO ONE bothers to even sit down beside me, let me cry on her shoulder, lend a listening ear, and to tell me that 'everything will be alright'.

Instead someone pats my back, tells me, 'cheer up'. But what's the point of cheering up when no one even tries to cheer you up. They just stare at you. Just being physically there, does not mean you're emotionally there. Sigh.

To you, stop demoralising me. I'll prove you wrong, and make you swallow back all those words. Label me all you want, 'cause I'll make sure you carry the embarrassment on your face forever with you.

Is this the feeling i have to walk with?

RUNNOSH, i'm sorry for lying to you. I WAS alone.