Beneath the Boardwalk

2010-09-17T22:36:00.001+08:00

Switched to tumblr. Find me if you can.

Bye.

Tell me how to listen to my head, when it makes my heart break?

2010-09-15T21:21:00.003+08:00

Cheer up.

Well.
Easier uttered than done.

Don't ever mention these two words to me if you yourself don't know how to make me to.

**

No, i'm not ignoring you/turning to you only when i want or need to. I'm not the type of person you think i am. You just don't know what's been going on, so don't assume.

Assumptions hurt you.
But it'll hurt me more.

***

I don't know what this friendship means to you.
I don't know how genuine it is.
I don't know how sincere it is.
I don't know, i really don't.
And i doubt you know it too.

I can't walk away, cause i still love you.

2010-08-24T20:34:00.001+08:00

Annoyingggggg.

Today's such an irritating dayyyy.
A lot of homeworkkkkk)):

Cheer practice became sleeping session.((((:

I feel lazy and dullllll DDDD:

Right now i'm feeling :l

2010-08-22T17:42:00.004+08:00

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I can really use a wish right now.

You, i will never let you know, and i won't.

To the other you, stop worrying seriously. I'm not pushing you away okay.

Glogster is acting up.
Pissing me off.

But i'm happy today(:
Really am.

2010-08-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

Mummy promised to buy me a new laptop if i get good results for END YEARS.
Well, that's kind of hard. Haha.
Looking at how i only have six weeks left.

BLEAH.
BIO GLOGSTER HOW TO DO.

Trigonometry for A MATHS is totally killing me. >: O

GAH

2010-08-21T13:55:00.002+08:00

"Tak semua orang yang cantik, baik.
Tetapi semua orang yang baik, cantik."

Ustazah, you're right. And you left me wondering.

I've always enjoyed madrasah. Never failed to make me smile.(:

Nabi Muhammad, if you're still here, looking at our state, you would be disappointed.

***

I'm such an emotional girl, and i just don't know why. I feel too much, and it's bad, cause i end up hurting myself.

I hate saying out my thoughts.
I hate saying out my feelings.
Cause to me, these two things are somethings only you should know.
GAH.
I hold by this too much till sometimes i regret it.

It's just.. too hard.

Hold your breath;

2010-08-18T21:09:00.005+08:00

No, I'm not denying, but i just don't want to admit.
No, I'm not weird, but i just happen to change the way i act around things.
No, I'm not distancing, but i'm just preventing myself from disappointment.
No, I'm not anti social, but i just can't be bothered.
No, I'm not quiet, but i'm just tired of talking.

I'm not sad anymore. I'm not hurt anymore. It just so happens i'm so immuned to all this mess, i can't feel anymore.

You've really changed, i don't know who you are. I don't like hanging out with you, not because i don't like you, or i just want to push you away, but you are a totally different person now. You don't need me anymore, do you? Don't worry, cause i am stepping back, and i really will.

I'm happy. Pretty cliche huh. But maybe it's cause i don't bother, and maybe, not bothering is the best way out.

******

I can't stand noise anymore, i really can't. I can't stand screamy people who are so angsty and get irritated so easily. I can't stand people who raise their voice at the simplest of things. I can't stand insensitivity too.

Simple words like 'i love you', or 'how do you do' are really the ones that would make my day.
And thanks for those who've been doing that.

Do you or do you not?

2010-08-15T15:46:00.001+08:00

I hate the i-miss-you feeling.
It sucks especially when the person you miss doesn't even miss you back.
(Haha)

But really,
i can't help,
but
miss you,
more and more.

2010-08-15T15:37:00.005+08:00

Wheeee, i love smiling and laughing.
I don't mind hurting my jaws as long as i get to laugh :D

I'M HAPPY
pretty cliche.
but
i
really
am
HAPPY.

2010-08-15T15:29:00.001+08:00

Do i really love you?

Hmm, i don't know.

Footprints on the grass;

2010-08-15T14:25:00.001+08:00

priceless reactions that make you laugh :D

and insanity that makes you smile(:

FITRIAHHH

2010-08-15T14:23:00.001+08:00

Where are youuu?
I'm waiting for your debate speech to be in before i can do mineeeeeeeeeee

TOINK

2010-08-15T14:14:00.002+08:00

I wanna go back kampunggggggggggggggggg.
And kecoh kecoh plus jerit jerit plus lari lari over there.
Awh man. I miss plucking rambutans from the pokok):

Snow angels

2010-08-15T14:01:00.002+08:00

I wanna go back there. And lie down on the smooth velvet patch of white snow.

How do i feel right now?

2010-08-15T13:59:00.001+08:00

That's how i feel.
Ya allahh, there are so manyy things to doooo

2010-08-14T16:19:00.001+08:00

I'm tired of you. Really i am.

2010-08-14T12:23:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah, alhamdullillah, you have given me another chance to meet this year's ramadhan.

4th day of ramadhan.
But i owe the first day. Fancy getting sick on the first day of ramadhan. Its okay, maybe there is a hidden hikmah(:

School is pretty much okay.
Though i sweat easily during maths lesson. Trigooooo, there's like no end to it. It's been more relaxed too with ndp over. But cheer's gonna start soon oh no. I'm in no mood at all for cheer): I kinda forgot about it during this whole period of time.

Oh wells.

2010-06-30T20:27:00.002+08:00

What the hell man.

My results are like shit. 2As, 1B, 4Cs, and 1E.

Seriously? What the hell. I'm pissed at the freaking numbers. I studied. I dare say I STUDIED cause i really did. But, dumb people still get dumb results right? If dumb people study, it will help them to pass, but never with flying colours huh. Stupid. Looking at my standard in the LEVEL, i'm never getting anywhere. Pfft.

Say ahhh;

2010-05-31T17:42:00.003+08:00

Another fruitful day(:

Well, in the morning, had maths. Such a bad thing to start the day off. But, people around me were irritatingly funny, so had fun.

Then practised our performance for the exchange programme. MALAY DANCE, yes malay dance. Humaira + Malay dance? Naaehh. You can imagine me marching and doing drills but malay dance? Haha, any oh way, managed to do it(: Thanks junie for helping us. Hidayu+Syafiqah+Izni+Aqilah+Fatin+Me dancing MALAY dance can be made into a comedy.

Another annoying thing. Everyone was bragging about how their buddies from malaysia have been contacting them, while mine has not. Checked with cikgu, and i found out she gave the wrong email?!!! My nostrils are flaring now. But, i emailed my buddy ready. Hope she replies sooooon.

Went to PotongPasir Macs, ate, and talked. Talked for 2 hours. From Malaysia, to hotels, to suicides, to dreams, then deaths. The talk became more morbid i know. But whatever, it was fun, and interesting.

Aqilah, Hidayu and Syafiqah are going to be my room-mates! Aqilah and me are going to accompany each other everytime we need to go to toilets or anything, even in our room, cause both of us are MAJOR cowards. Haha, so we'll be sleeping in between hidayu and syafiqah, with hope that they'll protect us. Funny shit.

Excited for exchange programme!

But, i have to worry for specialist course which is tomorrow till thursday. Please, wish me the best of luck. I'll need it ):

It's up to me;

2010-05-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

I hate admitting, at times. Sigh

Down to earth;

2010-05-30T20:51:00.002+08:00

Hmmms, this june holiday is going to be HECTIC. I really mean it.

So many things going on, one after the other. I guess, i won't be able to get enough rest, but i'll have more than enough fun(:

Friends flying off to UK, and Australia, for learning journeys.

Well, i've sacrificed my trip to UK for my sister's wedding, and i really hope it'll go well for her(: Her happiness is mine too. Though, i'll miss her being single, where we can do any random thing together. No more bugging her in bed, no more wrestling on the bed, no more sleeping with her. Hmm, 6 more days, just 6.

I've been indulging myself in wildlife documentaries at home when i have nothing to do. Spongebob too has been making my day(:

I'm excited. Relatives from malaysia, and indonesia coming down this week :D

Well, i guess that's all for today(:

2010-05-27T22:32:00.001+08:00

Raqibah has been complaining about my tagboard moving up and down. Is it true?

HAHA, maybe to those unfortunate miserable internet explorer users, it'll appear like that. But cool mozilla firefox users, won't have difficulties. WINKS RAQIBAH. HAHA.

(:

Cmon, shake shake, shake it;

2010-05-27T22:16:00.002+08:00

OH GOSH.

I'm bored.

Someone entertain me.

Tomorrow, going to do a good deed somewhere with that annoying raqibah. Something to occupy myself with((:

2010-05-27T21:46:00.003+08:00

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER.

It's like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulder.

JUNE HOLIDAYS.

Looking forward to it, but not so also, cause i'll be permanently unavailable the whole month):
But whatever. At least MYEs are overrrrrrr.

Dear charlie, it's time for us to shine<3

2010-05-21T20:23:00.002+08:00

WHOA. Finally a break.

English, was moderate. I was lucky i had ideas.

Chemistry, was SIGH. Such a tough paper, especially the MCQs. Chem chem chem, finally, you're over. Well, temporarily.

I felt like as though MYEs was over right after the Chem paper was collected. Hmm, maybe 'cause chem took up like 90 percent of the data in my brain? Plus the papers ended at 4. BUT SADLY IT'S NOT.

6 more subjects to go. No, not helping at all. I hope that all the chem shit i vomitted out during the paper, managed to allow my brain to have some extra space for the other subjects.

HML Paper 1, Paper 2
SSGeog
EMaths
AMaths
Biology
History

Please, make life easier for me.

2010-05-16T18:30:00.002+08:00

I don't have a good feeling about this upcoming mid years and my instincts never lie. I'm very worried for both my E and A maths. It's getting rusty, in fact, it rusted long time ago. Gosh, someone get me out of this terrible shit. ):

Goals have been set, but what matters more now is whether i'm even able to reach it. :S

2010-05-15T22:04:00.002+08:00

"If one day you feel like crying, call me. I can't promise that i'll make you laugh. But i can cry with you. If one day you want to run away, don't be afraid to call me. I promise i won't ask you to stop , but i can run with you. If one day you don't want to listen to anyone, call me. I promise to be there for you, but also promise to be quiet. But one day if you call and there is no answer, come fast to see me. Perhaps, i need you."

I received this. I was touched. (:

2010-05-12T20:21:00.002+08:00

Today:

TLC training = :D
Malay = >:(
Chemistry = :S
History = :)
Geog = :l

This made my day today(:

If i only wishes come true;

2010-05-11T18:19:00.002+08:00

Return me all that i once had.
Sexiie foxiies, the kentalans, and most importantly, the four of us.

Please?

2010-05-11T18:01:00.002+08:00

I'm happy today (:

School was normal, everything was normal, just that i was extra sweaty today. :S

Oh gosh, i really miss my sec 1/sec 2 days when you were still there. Hmm, but memories still stay as memories i guess. You've moved on with your life, i've moved on with mine. But i'll always look back with a smile on my face(:

Hmm, mid years is in a week. Hitler and Stalin, if you didn't exist and cause so much trouble, i wouldn't have to study about you for history ): Chemistry, i don't even know why i'm learning about you in the first place -.- SSGeog, i really don't care about you. Can you just leave me alone? Bio, i'll TRY to squeeze you in my brain. And maths, you are annoying.

Runnosh, thanks for the 'rainbow'(:

TTFN.

2010-05-10T18:25:00.001+08:00

If i could reach up, and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire sky will be mine.

Drowning;

2010-05-10T16:49:00.000+08:00

I'm not a strong girl.

I'm weak. An understatement.
I'm worse than weak.

I'm weak in everything.
I'm so weak in even controlling myself, what more my emotions.
I'm weak cause I let myself be pushed to the ground.
I'm so weak to stand up on my own.
I'm so weak to contain my tears.
I'm so weak to even believe in myself.

Weak + hopeless = ME

Enough of trying. Why try in the first place, if you don't get anything in the end?

I'm tired of trying, because i'm weak. I'm weak because no one believes in me. No one really cares, and NO ONE bothers to even sit down beside me, let me cry on her shoulder, lend a listening ear, and to tell me that 'everything will be alright'.

Instead someone pats my back, tells me, 'cheer up'. But what's the point of cheering up when no one even tries to cheer you up. They just stare at you. Just being physically there, does not mean you're emotionally there. Sigh.

To you, stop demoralising me. I'll prove you wrong, and make you swallow back all those words. Label me all you want, 'cause I'll make sure you carry the embarrassment on your face forever with you.

Is this the feeling i have to walk with?

RUNNOSH, i'm sorry for lying to you. I WAS alone.

2010-05-08T20:22:00.000+08:00

What i learned during madrasah yesterday : I AM A MUSLIM(:

Man, ust hatta won't be teaching us anymore): Hmm, such an abrupt goodbye. Oh wells. We'll meet him during camp(:

You know, i'm starting to be a happier person, on the inside. I've learnt to let go of people. Sometimes, things happen for a reason, even though I don't know what they are for most situations. But, if it's for the best, then I'll just bear the pain for a little while. Anw, you can't really love someone too much, and similarly hate too. Cause at one point of time, it'll bound to switch 180 degrees.

Renew myself, renew everything, and it'll turn out alright.

RUNNOSH, thanks for being there all the time without fail. You're AWSUM.

:D

Life's great.

2010-04-18T15:30:00.000+08:00

BLEAH SO ANNOYING.

I dont want school tmr, because the weekend is so so so so short. > : O

EXPRESS YOURSELF

2010-04-17T16:51:00.000+08:00

Credits to Raqibah's camera.

Pictures from other people are still pending(:

2010-04-17T13:52:00.000+08:00

I WENT THROUGH A PAINFUL EXPERIENCE JUST NOW :O
Haha, don't want to mention it. BLEAH.

I WANT EYD PICTURESS. The peeps who took pics with me have not uploaded them yet. HURRY.

There's a reason for everything;

2010-04-17T13:39:00.000+08:00

You are such an asshole, but you just don't realise it. Cause you're so ignorant of yourself.

You seemed like a flower at first, but when your true colours start to show, you became thorns. Your words seemed like a melody, but in the end, they are like spears stabbing my heart.

I'm fooled by you. All this while, whatever you did were just superficial, and i was gullible enough to fall for it.

But i'm thankful, cause Allah showed me who you really are. You are a hypocrite, a bad one indeed. A hypocrite filled with lies, and you have a thousand masks over your face.

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for showing me the way(:

Fall in love through your heart, not your eyes

2010-04-14T21:16:00.000+08:00

Today's lessons were pretty great, except for chem. Malay, as usual, was relaxing(: But it wasn't as fun though 'cause we had to listen to presentations. Anyohway, it was mindcooling.

Straight after that, History(: It was enjoyable as we sat at the theatherette and watched the continuation of the Hitler movie. Everyone was being calefare, eating cereal. So, it was a sit back, and enjoy the show kinda thing. Furthermore, ms lizah wasn't there, and trainee teacher was nice. So, you know, horns started appearing on everyone's heads. Hahaha.

SSGeog was the best i tell you. Not even 10 minutes of the lesson passed, then the fire alarm went off, so we missed the whole SSGeog period. Fire drill was hilarious. Everyone was acting like no one's business. Like again, being so carefree and calefare. Haha.

RECESS

Chem was a spoiler. The quiz was totally screwed. Oh wells, i am not a chemically-inclined person. Pfft.

TOP = SACKS(SEX) TALK

Urgh, it was DISGUSTING and TRAUMATISING. Yeah, blah blah, they were trying to raise awareness among teenagers, but i really feel it still isn't morally right to just publish and exhibit people's private parts, which i wouldn't want to mention. Even though, their intention was purely to instill fear in us, so that we won't have unprotected SACKS. Wearing corn-dums also must teach. -.-
But we still got uselful tips so yeah(:

Moving on, after school had parade. Really disappointed in myself for letting my nervous-ness take over.

Yeah, that's all that happened today.

Don't stop believing;

2010-04-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

Today was a GLEEfilled day :D

I feel so happy, vibrant, colourful, energetic, and i'm learning to open up too.

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: MLDDS

Shafena came(: She played the guitar, she played the piano, she's one really talented girl. Oops, i mean GAY. HAHA(: Give her one song, she can automatically play it. It was so funn(: SANGGG alot. Medley of don'tstopbelieving~crush~no air~no boundaries~whataya want from me~keep holding on and lots moreeee. It was so satisfying, and i drowned all my sorrows through singing. So, my sorrows for the day faded away.

Walk home with Shafena, Aqilah, Nisa, and Rabiatul was pleasant too. Smell of rain, sounds of pitter pattering, droplets of water on you, it was really beautiful. Enjoyed it totally despite the lightning. Epic(:

Love today a lot.

Thanks people(:

2010-04-11T13:13:00.000+08:00

This song is cool(: It's nice too.

HAHA, MIKA.

Anw, yesterday went off to dunman's serenata v concert. Apparently it's a band concert. I went cause of syafawati. Hahaha, it was quite entertaining and nice(: Good job syasya!

****

I've no plans for today. Studied yesterday, and i don't feel like doing so today. BLEAH. Please someone teach me LOGSSSS. I am dying, i really am. Actually, i'm already dead. Someone revive me by teaching me LOGS.

So, i guess the plan for today is, GO WITH THE FLOW. Haha.(:

That's it for today.

Corals and blue sea;

2010-04-11T13:03:00.000+08:00

PULAU REDANG!

So nice righttt, i know. (:
But you know what, my mum wants to go there from 21-25. And that's exactly when OBS and exchange programme will be happening. GAH. I'm striking off OBS. IF, my mum doesn't change the date, and still wants to go on 21-25, i don't care, i'm striking out exchange programme too. NO WAY am i going to let my family go off somewhere without me. Anw, it's more worth it to spend time with my family heh ;D

PULAU REDANG!

I can't wait to meet youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

GEEEE, WHEEE, I'm so so so so so excited. OH SHIT. It's only april wth. ONLY APRIL! And all this while i was blabbering, i thought i was in june.

EWWWWW, IT'S ONLY APRIL. STILL HAVE MAY. ARGHHHH.

MID YEARS! NO NO NO.

Sunshine coming in;

2010-04-10T17:34:00.000+08:00

OMG, 5 items is this tuesday! Actually, not really that worried. Just worried for my 2.4. I fear for my stamina deteriorating. BLEAH. Really. If running 2km twice in a week for jogging sessions doesn't help, I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. I'm a worry wart, i know that. I have to mantain my A for 2.4 seriouslyyy.

Between OBS and exchange programme, which one should i gooo?

Anw, my sister is bugging me. HAHA, but that made me laugh todayyy.

THANKS RUNNOSH TOO for the motivational letter.

I'm going off to dunman with my sister to watch my friend's band concert.

BYE!

TTFN, tata for now(:

2010-04-10T16:44:00.000+08:00

"When one door closes, another opens."
Where is the door? I can't seem to find it. Dear someone, lead me to it.

Apparently, I spent 3 hours, on a mission to understand and get logs right. However, it failed. YES, Humaira ALWAYS fails. Always fail to get things right. Always fail to succeed on her missions.

FINE, I GIVE UP.

I won't give a damn about logs anymore. Even if i care, even if i try to ammend it, it'll NEVER work right, i'll NEVER be able to get it right.

Call me pessismistic, whatever you want, but you don't really know what shit i'm going through.

Sigh, okay.

On a happier note, i finally understood mole concept. Alhamdulillah(: Hope my chemistry can progress and improve.

Generally, those were what happened today.

DONE.

2010-04-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

Today was SLIGHTLY better. Thanks people for the joy. Really appreciate it(:

2010-04-08T21:29:00.001+08:00

What am i running for?

2010-04-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

THIS WORLD IS SO HYPOCRITICAL.

Take off the mask, put away your facade. Words don't mean anything, as long as the mask of hypocritism is still there. You'll make the world a better place, a much better one indeed.

Another breakdown.

2010-04-08T21:00:00.001+08:00

No hello, no hey, no hi for today.

Day by day, it gets worse. Day by day, i learn more, but lose even more. Day by day too, the challenges get tougher.

Apparently, today just wasn't my day. I can't believe that it really hurts me so much when i can't catch up with my studies. Well, maybe i didn't really feel it that much in lower sec, but sec 3, they just dump everything on you, as though you're some gigantic bin that can contain everything. One day, it's really going to overflow, and you yourself, are going to explode. Apparently, i just did today. MOLE CONCEPT IS A KILLER, whereas LOGS is a MURDERER. Combination of both, will lead me to? I don't have to mention it.

EVERY single time, when i try to understand one concept or whatever, and i succeed, i lose more. Once i look up, the teacher is already moving on and i just missed a whole chunk of explanation. How am i going to step up if i don't even get my foundation right?

It's really very heart wrenching, and there's no other problem worrying me now, other than my studies. It's not about time management, not about other commitments whatsoever, but in class itself, i can't catch up. It's not as if i talk too.

Thanks aliza for the hug. I really went through an emotional shit, and emotions were screwed up. Thank you very much Yeening, i really love you for teaching me chemistry, thanks jasmine for assisting.
Thanks to hazirah and aqilah too for the walk home today. Felt good.

I'm really like an overturned turtle, trying to turn over successfully, but who will be there, to do so for me?

I'm like a fish trapped in a net, and who will be there to get me out of the shit?

I'm like an ordinary cedarian lagging, panting, behind everyone, but who will be running back, just to get me, and take my hand?

Well, i guess no one huh. Just have to keep on trying and trying, and though it hurts, i just have to continue running and running..

2010-04-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

I'm so dumb at times. So helpless till i just do things for the sake of doing it. I do it because i have to, not because i want to. I just feel obliged to do it just because of certain reasons whenever i'm in those kind of situations. It's not as if 'these people' left such a huge impact on my life, or make a difference in my life till i have to be part of contributing my effort for them. Just a waste of effort really. Do they even do the same for me? NO.

Sigh, really. I know, this kind of attitude i'm having is real bad. But, everyone has their own flaws right. And this seem to be my minus point.

2010-03-30T19:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 15 TEEN ROU HUI!

OLDER THAN ME, but you still look younger than me cause of your ehem height ehem. HAHA, aww, i really hope you will get your growth spurt kayy! :D Cause i know it's miserable to be short. I was once like that tooo. Also, thanks for being an eenie meenie friend. Your the cutest shortEST friend i have. Haha. Hope you do well in your studies, and cca alright. Love you loads. Have fun, and i wish you all the best in future. A BIG SLOPPY MUACKS!

XOXO
HUMAIRA! :D

2010-03-30T18:42:00.000+08:00

FINALLY ME AND VANESSA ARE BACK TOGETHER AGAIN!! (tablepartners)

Aww, that girl is so emotional. It's over, all the worrying and stuff and whatever we had to go through, the embarrassment, we got back our sits!! :D

You know what. I just realised that no matter how much i hate someone or whatsoever, i still don't have the heart to leave her when she is in such a bad state and facing difficulties. Especially if it involves health conditions. One incident happened just now. Hmm, it's just pure natural human instinct, no need for force, no reluctance whatsoever huh. Cause you just now, you need to lend a helping hand(:

I was ditched so many times today. HECK CARE. >:O

2010-03-29T20:54:00.000+08:00

Forget it.

I really can't understand you, so it's better if i stay away huh. It's not as if i make so much difference in your life. Maybe for a moment you can feel me distancing, but in the end, you will get by it right. Afterall, you have to world to look forward to, and you have everything and everyone by your side.

But at least, i appreciate everything i have.

2010-03-29T20:49:00.001+08:00

Iluminati.

Adakah ini tandanya?

2010-03-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

Why is everything becoming like this? You know the worse feeling i'm feeling right now is insecurity and unsureness. I hate to assume, but somehow, i just can't help it, but feel that way. ):

I want someone who can stay by my side ALL THE TIME. Someone whom i can really run to, ANY TIME. But, it's hard to find someone like that huh. Humans, everyone has flaws. It's just that, there's someone who's just one in a million, out there, i don't know who, but i'll keep on searching. SIGH.

2010-03-28T19:05:00.000+08:00

Aww, how cute.

Anyway, i didn't really do much todayy. Just that, all day, all that i could do was to HACHOOOOM, sneeze. Such an irritant. I've been trying to catch my nose, but you know, FAILED. Sigh, i'm so not going to enjoy school tmr. This is actually the first time, i am not looking forward to school, AT ALL.

2010-03-28T19:04:00.000+08:00

OH HELL NO!

TOMORROW'S MONDAY! URGHHHHHHHH

2010-03-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

I'm so dumb. Forgot to blog about NUS.

NUS was a valuable experience. It felt so good hearing people laugh at you when you're performing on stage. The satisfaction going up on stage to receive the award. Memories are indispensable.(: If given another chance, i won't hesitate to perform again.

Love all of you<3

2010-03-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

I.HAVE.BEEN.LIVING.IN.A.SHELL.

Infer from that.

Today has been quite a plot-less day. Not saying that my days are full of suspense and seem like a storybook but i just felt that there was nothing productive made out of today. Chemistry is chemically poisoning me to death. A Maths has been making me grouchy and cranky, and unaware of my environment because i'm just too caught up on solving the EEEE-quations. English periods are mostly interaction sessions i guess. Malay lessons are for me to relax my mind. Meanwhile, biology has been the most irritating one. GAH. Don't mention SS GEOG. It's the worse. Specifically elective geog. What else huh? OH YES. History. I'm at the verge of giving up. I know, i have to hold myself back though, but i really cannot catch up.

Hmm, so much for wanting to get my 8 points, but lowering my expectations, 9 points. It's so pressurising. Not the pressure from teachers, parents or any controlling authorities. But more of pressure from my own self. I so badly want it, and i just don't want to let myself down. It may seem too early to talk about this, but time really flies, and the next moment you know, you're in sec 4.

I just realised that the best way is for me to assure my own self. 'Cause i don't think anyone is capable to do it better.

2010-03-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

OAC's over. Mixture of satisfaction, exhaustion, happiness, sadness. All, for different reasons. It was really a memorable experience. Cliche, but certain things are better kept, than being said.Clearing garbage, cleaning bins, unchoking sinks, caterpillars, and the tonnes of fruits. Heh, the memories are really indispensable.

Kitchen dept 2010<3

Though it's short, it contains a lot of meaning behind it.

*******

Anw, the term is over, finally. But, i don't think i can differentiate between this upcoming holiday than any other school day. In fact, it'll be even more packed i guess. Sigh, never ending activities, one after the other. Can the school like really stop torturing us, and drowning us with more misery? Gosh, we need the rest too.

Today marked the end of the school day for this term, meaning, i got back all my results already. Alhamdulillah, parents were really satisfied with my results and contented with my performance. Though, i still think there's more improvement to be made.

****

Some people tend to piss me off. More of hurt me emotionally than anger me. Hurt is even worse than anger, cause it really pains your heart. You know, a certain bunch out there are so blunt, they spurt out words that are so sharp like an arrow, and it hits you in your face just like that. They just don't understand how to filter whatever comes out of their mouth, so everything flows out, including the impurities and crap. Rude people shouldn't be respected at all. They don't deserve it. I am disgusted by people who just ruin your self esteem. They're not even up to standard, and they still dare to spurt out of those flaks. I treat you the way you treat me. Get that in your head.

2010-03-06T21:43:00.001+08:00

OAC is in 2 days.

I'm nervous, at the same time, excited.

Let's just hope everything is going to go well. At least, it should.

2010-02-28T15:21:00.001+08:00

My schedule's mixed up. I don't know which ones to prioritise. It's okay, that doesn't matter right now. What matters most is, i HAVE TO STUDY.

And, RAQIBAH BTE ABDUL RAZAK. You better make yourself free after CTs and we can spend a gay time together! It has been long since we've chat. ):

2010-02-27T21:43:00.000+08:00

I haven't been involving myself in my social life. Too busy, and i can't be bothered. My facebook will be left there to rot. :D

Anyway, two continuous weeks of killer common tests. My brain's just going to burst any moment soon. E maths, SS and Chemistry down. Now i'm left with Bio, A-Maths, and History. History can just go down the drain. I know it's kind of bad of me to say that, cause i easily give up and blah blah blah. But really, 4 heavy topics to be compressed inside your brain?! My brain can't hold that much, or maybe it is able to, but i just can't seem to allow it to? BLEAH. I'm so not looking forward to the OH-SO wonderful results i'm going to receive in the upcoming week. (Do not the sarcasm i included)

Moving on to cheery stuff.

MY SISTER's GOING FOR A HONEYMOON IN EUROPE. How awesome can it get? Well, the main reason why i'm overreacting is because she's going to 5 FREAKING COUNTRIES. FIVE. F-I-V-E, 5! HOLLAND, FRANCE, GERMANY, BELGIUM, SWITZERLAND! Who doesn't want like omg? HAHA, kak dayah, i want to tag along, pleaseeeee.

Odc refreshers just now was fun(: Surprisingly, the food turned out unexpectedly delicious, for Outdoor cooking standard.

I'm experiencing jet lag today. So sleepy. YAWNS

2010-02-15T18:38:00.000+08:00

Yawns. Nose, will you come back? ):

2010-02-07T14:23:00.001+08:00

I walk a lonely road,
the only one that i've ever known.
Don't know where it goes,
but it's only me and i walk alone.

Shadow, as long as you're still there, i'll be alright(:

If only i could get all those back;

2010-02-07T14:15:00.000+08:00

I miss:
1) Sec 1
2) The times when ONLY school revolved around me
3) The times when i could still play in the rain, and be carefree
4) People
5) That certain period of time
6) EVERYTHING
7) The times when everything could just be the way i wanted it to
8) The eternal promises that were made
9) Kentalans
10) Sexiie Foxiies
11) The time when i was a nerd (LIKE REALLY)
12) The friendships that were made
13) Screaming and shouting like there's no tomorrow
14) Grandstand

I miss everything, and most importantly, i miss the people who once made my day, who made my life enjoyable and memorable.

If only,
IF only,
i could rewind.

Won't it be wonderful?

We belong together;

2010-02-06T17:04:00.000+08:00

Uhmm, little heart, why are you feeling like this?

Reluctance, that's what i am going through right now. Have you ever felt a certain feeling which you know IS true, but you just can't bring yourself to accept it?

Sigh, i am unsure of what i am feeling. ):

It all faded away;

2010-02-06T16:20:00.000+08:00

Drama practice yesterday was, ra ra ooh la la :D Enjoyable, pleasurable(: Never once in my life had i looked forward to drama practices. I guess it's the atmosphere, the instructor(: Shan't reveal much about drama practice here.

March is going to be a frantic month for me, activity after activity. 2 weeks from now, it'll be CTs, the killa. So, is it supposed to be an alarm for me to start studying? Oh yea, i guess so.

A month and 6 days since school started. Various events have come and gone, situations in which i was able to overcome, and situations in which i totally gave up on, and just letting it slide past me without taking any action upon. I am not a superhuman. I am just an ordinary girl, with an equally small heart and capability. It's just a matter of whether i'm able to walk on it or not. At the same also, i've came across different personalities. Some of which i really like, and also some of which i totally despise. I know, different people, different personalities, but, i also have my own level of tolerance myself. Once you've stretched my tolerance till it's reached it's maximum, don't ever try to test my patience and mess with me even more. 'Cause once it snaps, i will never ever forgive you. I don't care about what you've said, and i won't abide by the principal of forgiving and forgetting. I've been doing that a hell lot of times, but if you're still the same old stubborn one, trust me, you'll never be able to gain my forgiveness back. Like my old nanny said, "Once a heart is scratched, it'll never be healed and it'll forever stay as a permanent mark."

To you, you've countlessly been hurting me, testing my patience. Doesn't mean i don't look as intimidating as you do, you can just easily step on my head, and throw rude and intolerable remarks to me. It clearly states what morals and values you hold inside you. You've made my eye sting, and i hate you because of that. I hate wasting my tears for a pile of shit like you. I hate you for making me not look forward to the rest of the day, and i hate you for making all the fun i had fade away. You really have to stop what you are doing, before you continue making a thousand of the others suffer the same thing as what you did to me. You can hurt me physically, and i still can forgive you because the scar will still be cured. However, once you've hurt my heart, the mark will stay there for the rest of my life.

I want your love;

2010-01-31T15:16:00.000+08:00

My day started out with a healthy move. Aerobic exercises are pretty tough, and i will be lying if i claim that it is easy. It sure was intensive, and i was sweating like a pig. It was worse than how i normally sweat during 2.4 under the hot sun. However, it was very cool because the exercises that i did was according to fast-paced songs like bad romance. So, from next week onwards, i shall be disciplined and go for the aerobic sessions without fail. You might think i am a loser, but I DON'T CARE, because i am doing this for the sake of my body and health.

Whoopiee, i am changing plan! I am so happpy! UNLIMITED SMSes, here i come.

Keep you;

2010-01-30T16:46:00.000+08:00

I am really addicted to Keep You by JLS.

This whole upcoming week is going to be hectic. With BTC and all.
But oh wells, i guess it's going to be an interesting week too.

What i've learnt this week:
1)Chemistry sucks
2)Some people really piss me off.
3)To stay focus.

Madrasah session yesterday was kind of interesting, if i eliminate the fact that i was late, and i missed out a lot on Ustazah Rohana's sirah lesson.

That's all about it. I feel very lazy to type out more.

2010-01-26T20:27:00.000+08:00

Sigh, all you know is to ruin my day, is to ruin my mood. Really okay, enough means enough.

Flower.Unicorn.Carrot.King

Whenever you remember;

2010-01-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

Took MRT in the morning. But, it was kind of annoying because hazirah was grouchy and diyanah was being irritating. Hahaha, but nevertheless it was kind of entertaining. At least, i started out Monday morning with a big bright smile(: Wheee, GAY.

Lessons went on as per normal, except that Ms A shared with us her past experience of being in cedar and showed us pictorial evidence of her before and after results, and also her moments in cedar. It was interesting, because she was really honest about her results.

MLDDS after school was noisy even though sec 1s (who were supposed to have orientaion today) weren't present. From space jump, till peribahasa charrades(:

Really had a great time today.

Not monday blues baby.(:

2010-01-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

I am neither here nor there.
Tell me, where can i go to?

2010-01-24T16:11:00.000+08:00

BLAH BLAH BLAH

2010-01-24T15:47:00.000+08:00

I would like to start off by saying,
RAQIBAH! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH CAUSE YOU WAITED FOR ONE LONG HOUR FOR ME. Thank you so much. Especially with that nose of yours running around all the time, you still waited for me without getting grumpy. So sorry for oversleeping, but, that's not the point. I don't know how to thank you enough for waiting for me.

Yeah, that's how sweet raqibah is. Recce and belay school yesterday was intensive. My fear of heights is really undescribable. I CAN climb, but the thought of being suspended in the air is just horrifying, no matter how many ropes are tied to you, no matter how many people assure you you're going to be safe. In this kind of situations, only one thing can hold you through. YOURSELF. Yeah, and i just realised that yesterday when i was mounting that wall. Obviously my heart stopped beating halfway, but hell yeah, i completed it! Can you believe it? I overcame my bloody fear, and i completed it, all the way to the top! :D

Belaying was so cool and fun, though my neck was strained and i was squinting due to the scorching sun. Hazel told me that shades is really essential. Kind of true(:

One long, enriching day yesterday. Was worth the time(:

2010-01-10T15:13:00.001+08:00

School's going to resume tomorrow, and the whole routine will start over again. Weekends seem to be ending fast. But holidays seem to pass by SO SLOWLY. Time always go by in the opposite manner you want it to be. I have malay homework undone. The homework is a total crap. Go through 10 articles, and write about it? Even though it's holiday homework, but still? It's just too much.

I haven't written runnosh's letter and bought runnosh a chocolate. Haha, later.(:

Peace out.

2010-01-10T14:41:00.001+08:00

SIGH, i am so so so embarassed. Please okay, that thing isn't even true at all! It's not even my fault, and i can't believe it that rumours have been going around. Sucks okay, SUCKS! Absolutely throw face and i feel as though i want to duck my head into the earth below. Hahaha, bloody hell. It's an untrue rumour. No wonder it's even called a rumour. Ya allah, tolonglah hambumu ini.

Haha, anyway. IDC. As long as i know it isn't true, that's the most important thing(:

2010-01-09T15:17:00.000+08:00

I would love to be able to walk through the misty cotton-looking white stuffed clouds up there.

Oh how fantastical it'll be like. Sitting there at the edge of the bridge, and even if your slipped, the clouds will be able to catch you to prevent you from falling even deeper and deeper.

You're like the clouds to me. It's just that, you don't realise that.

2010-01-09T15:07:00.001+08:00

BACK TO CAMPUS

2010-01-04T19:38:00.000+08:00

(look at my mushroom hair)

First day of school wasn't as bad as i thought. Though, the awkward feeling between new classmates is existent. Subject teachers, Ms Lizah, Mr Kang, Mrs Foo, Mr Tay, Mdm Faridah. I heard that these teachers are quite an expertee in their own field, so i just pray that with the help of these teachers i am depending on, my grades will improve. And, i don't care about the flaks people are giving me about my hair. Heh(: I am not attending a fashion show or something.

I was happy after school today(:

FULL STOP.

2010-01-02T20:53:00.000+08:00

Dictionary.com has been my newfound friend these few days, with the notion that i'd able to make some use out of it with a useless attempt to improve my english. Oh wells, i'll continue trying, like my mum said, "Aiya, language cannot be improved in a day or two, it takes months." As said, i'm having a high enthusiasm to work for it. After the countless times i've let my mum down, be it my deteriorating results, or inconsistent performance, it pains me to let her down another time. Whenever i try so hard, to improve on myself, on my standard, distraction always gets in the way. Being a very naive teenager, obviously, i'd get distracted, and thus forget the importance of studies. I shan't say more, cause everyone's smart enough to know the consequence and outcome of it. Just one word to describe it. BAD.

Well, i've come out of 2009 and currently in the year 2010 with the resolution of excelling in my studies. URHH, is that even possible? I wonder, how all those genius brainiacs are able to produce excellent and the typical results parents desire without fail each and every time. Not everyone's as smart as those brainiacs and i'm one of them. Yes, i know, i've to work doubly hard this time, though i am still having doubts in my abilities. Sigh, though mummy keeps on giving me the continual support, i still have a lack of confidence in myself, seeing the multiple times i've failed and continued failing.

We'll see Aiya, this year. Can you, or can't you? I need to drive and the motivation. I guess, i've gotten them, i just need more, i just need this spark that is able to make me to JUST DO IT.

2009-12-27T15:18:00.001+08:00

Thanks to you, i've realised how genuine our friendship is.

2009-12-27T14:59:00.000+08:00

ISH! This picture is so unglam. AHAHHA.

But, the point is, NAZIRAH AND IZZAH! When is our outinggg? ):

2009-12-27T14:42:00.000+08:00

Hahaha, this maknenek came to my house yesterday. It was really hilarious. As usual lah, this maknenek acted like one so it was like an entertainment to me.

Hahaha, i am done with my SS, 3 maths worksheets and english. Still have one more maths worksheet to go and malay. Sighh, malay is a reading log. I don't even know whether i am able to complete it within this holiday. 10 articles?! Different genres some more. Eee. Annoying lah.

Mutuals not done :O

Sighhh):

2009-12-23T16:06:00.001+08:00

I thought you could understand, but you couldn't.
I though you would understand, but you wouldn't.

Where are those eternal promises? It's always been ME ME ME. It's always been me, trying to understand. And whenever, i slipped, you would just sulk away, and act as though, i commited a crime of a lifetime. What should i do, seriously? I feel insecure whenever i talk to you, and i'm sorry to say, but i couldn't help, but put on a facade. Because you know why? I won't know how you are going to respond, and i don't want to know, cause i know, it will make me pessimistic. We just don't go along alright, face it. When i try to avoid you, you keep on coming into my head. Okay, everyone has different personalities, but your personality just don't suit me and it turns me off. I just don't like the way you act.

Just leave me alone,
and i'm sorry.

2009-12-23T15:55:00.000+08:00

Sigh, my maths is getting rusty. When i was tackling the maths homework, i realised that i really have so much to catch up on and re-revise. Sec 3 year next year is gonna be super hectic, with the selected combinations and responsibilities. Come on humaira, focus focus focus. I shall have to stop engaging in the social network frequently. It's distracted me much enough already.

Bleah. And, i can't wait to go out with Nazy, and Izzo tomorrow. Haha.

2009-12-11T20:15:00.000+08:00

I have been going out with those to makciks out there these two days. It was kind of hilarious, about how we randomly talked about random people, and how we randomly agreed with each other's random opinion.

Basically, today went out to buy books, then ate, then went home. That was the general plan that happened today.

Up first: Makcik #1 Hazirah
Better know as Makcik Hazizat for certain reasons and inside joke.

Today was hilariously an embarassing day for her though. She is weird. How can she ____ her skirt if her _____ is not ____??! Fill in appropriately, and please do not assume, thank you very much. (:
Nevertheless, this determined makcik managed to endure the whole way through by going through challenging challenges, embarassing moments, and ofc, the cute bunny shorts i forgot to mention :D

Anyways, have fun cleaning and trying to get rid of the countless ____ you've caused. Now i know what to buy for her for her birthday which is coming in 4 days(:
And hazirah, don't forget to use the bleach, trust pink forget stains aite? :D *winks*

Up next: Makcik #2 Noor Aqilah bte Noor Azlan

Better known as Aqezra(:
At first it was supposed to be Zaqilah, but we decided, Aqezra is better suited for her.

Oh wells, she is another annoying makcik who speaks rubbish. I guess, she is a premature baby. No wonder turn out like this, am i right? :D Heh, anyways, she likes to talk about things that are so crazily impossible, but it's possible if you intend to make it possible (:

Example:

Me: Omg, if the bus comes, i will be so irritated cause we are nearly reaching but we are not!
Aqilah: If it reaches, i am gonna drop all the books i am carrying and my bag, and i am going to run for the bus.

If your inferential skills are fabulous, you can clearly infer that aqilah is crazy like that.

Hah, but she is annoyingly funny though so yup. And she is forever taking pictures!

Okay, that's all for today.
I think i shall stop now.
Chill out, peace out.

2009-12-05T12:57:00.001+08:00

Sigh, i should be blogging about happier things, shouldn't I?

Hah, BBQ yesterday with platoonmates and specs, were kind of ruined. It was the weather. Bad timing. But nevertheless, it was a unforgettable experience. From earthworms squirming in puddles of mud, to us drenched in the rain while sheltering our food. Haha, just hope that specs enjoyed the BBQ. Plans were ruined, everything. But everything went smoothly and i just hope, they had a great time.

2009-12-05T12:53:00.001+08:00

Affliction.

That's what i'm feeling right now. The high five song that is playing in the background is causing me more irritation. So much for saying that you care, when you don't at all. Maybe you should stop showing that heck care attitude, thank you very much. Or maybe, it is just me who is so effed up. Whatever ah. Why should I care, since you don't even care at all. I should be giving the same treatment you are giving me. Tit for tat.

2009-11-17T14:28:00.000+08:00

I hate reading about how people classify their friends. About how this bunch makes so much difference in their life, just because they made their day a few times. I don't know what's your definition of friends. Are they people who come crawling back to you in times of need? Or are they people who stick by you, even through their ups and downs?

Some people, just tend to have the mindset that, i have a big social circle, it doesn't matter if i lose one or two friends. They don't make much of a difference anyway. Till when is that circle gonna stay strong and tight? Till your old and wrinkly? Pfft, i doubt so. I can bet my finger for that.

I envy those who are neutral about friends. They don't have best friends, and neither do they have enemies. Live life so easily. But everyone's living with the perception that when you don't have friends, your an effing loner who is so damn loser. Conformity. Yes, conformed by the society. Life is so full of obstacles, so full of flaw, that's why famous people even invented quotes about how you should learn how to get back up when you fall lalaladida.

Sigh, but sometimes i wonder. If problems never occur, will you be able to learn from your mistakes, learn how to improve yourself? Yes, there's always two sides to a coin.

I am disgusted by you. I really am. I am slowly observing, how you are chucking others aside, as and when you want.

I am watching.

2009-11-17T14:07:00.000+08:00

COALS is tomorrow, and i haven't even started packing. The house in in a mess, and i am irritated. Is a school holiday even one? Bummer, my holidays are packed. COALS, ROD, after that, all the time will be mine.

I hate what i am feeling now, and i really do

2009-11-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

What is your definition of love?

2009-11-15T20:49:00.000+08:00

What is wrong with this world?

Day by day, i have been constantly getting pissed off. Futhermore, i'm supposedly suppose to reduce on the number of smses i send. That's (NOT) possible.

Can someone help me?
Please.

2009-11-11T20:29:00.001+08:00

Your presence makes me happy(:

2009-11-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

I would like to start of, by saying, Happy 14th Birthday Zakir. HAHA, though he won't be reading this. But, whatever.

So, today was funny with Echo. We met at Julia's house, Butterfly Ave. The name is so damn cute. There was lychee avenue too, and, natasha and me were making fun of it. HAH, so cute. Imagine, Cabbage Ave. Hah, hilarious. So, da dee dum, were were in Julia's house. Omgee, it's SUPER big. 3 stories, and i was like gaping cause it was so damn nice. The third storey was all to Julia. One room, and one big hall. ALL HERS. OMGG. Hah. So, echo rehearsed our skit. ONCE. And i dont know for what reason, someone started the 'ghost' topic. So, all of us were crammed in a circle. Me and florence were squished in the middle, but we didn't mind, cause we were too horrified. Ishh, florence kept screaming and my ear wanted to burst. So, when i was telling them the ghost stories i had, they kept screaming and screaming till the floor shook. Sheesh.

Poor natasha. Her 12 year old cousin was dying at home, cause he suffered from leukemia. I pity him. So young, still have a long way to go, but go so soon. And, Natasha panicked.

Took 23 to the interchange. Then went to Tampines Mall to get something. Aft that, Abg Saini and Kak Dayah met me, so we went home together, while i was mc flurry-ing(:

End.

2009-11-06T16:45:00.001+08:00

2009-11-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

It's been long since i actually visited blogger. I was all over facebook till i forgot about blogger.

Sigh, these few days have been very shitty for me. I tend to get so emotional, and i get so irritated easily that i just vent my anger on those who have been there for me all this while. There are so many things bugging my mind right now, and i feel like pouring it out to someone, JUST someone. But, it always gives me the conscience that whenever i try to tell someone something, i am worried of what might happen. What he/she might be thinking about, what he/she will assume. Or maybe even judge. All of my little problems are all building up slowly in this heart of mine, and i still can't find the right someone, to tell it all to. Furthermore, whenever i give my trust to someone, i constantly get heartbroken, cause they just treat it like a trivial thing, and it's so easy of them to throw it away.

But, i feel fortunate that some new people are entering my life, and adding a tinge of colour to it, bit by bit. Thank you. Hai, i am still waiting for the emptiness in me, to be filled up.

2009-10-08T21:21:00.001+08:00

Who are you to judge me? Who are you? I didn't know you were so perceptive of others. Maybe on the outside you seem all nice, cheery and bubbly but i don't know what's going on in that heart of yours. As you grow older, you will change because you become more clearly of yourself and know what's right and what's wrong. Don't tell me, after all this while, you are still unsure about me. No matter how dumb i may appear to you, i still can differentiate between right and wrong. What do you even know about change? You are selfish. What's the point of remaining like i was last time, but not being able to be happy? Even if i change, and i am contented with it, why are still not happy with me? Come on lah okay. I am sick and tired of people saying the same thing. But i am still determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation i may be in or whatever i am facing, because i have learned from experience that, the greater part of my happiness really depends on my dispositions, and not circumstances.

2009-10-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

I went out studying with that three chikopeks up there. Made our way to Marine Parade Library. Hahaha, it was kind of productive actually but since me and Hazirah hungry, we went off at 5. Then suddenly my mum called me and said that Masjid Siglap terbakar. I was so shocked, and it was true because 31 had to use another route due to the fire. Astaghfirullah, what is happening to the world? From mudslides and earthquakes to tsunamis and MASJID terbakar. Tempat beribadah some more. Aft that, we went to buy waffles without raqibah. Walked home with aqilah.

"It is not my fault that i changed. So stop blaming me."

2009-10-06T19:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes we are too caught up in our daily troubles, till we forget the importance of actually moving on in this world. Landslides, earthquakes, tornadoes, tsunamis, masjid terbakar. All this, are they signs of the world ending? Most of us, don't even appreciate our lives, and keeps on saying how our life sucks and all. I do it too. But if you think about it, life is too short to dwell on. In a wink of an eye, you might be gone away from this world. You know, i guess that i have to learn to appreciate whatever i have. Being able to live in this world, thought me a lot of things, made me experience bitter and sweet moments. Everything. Ya Allah, jauhilah orang-orang yang beriman daripada Hari Kiamat.

I will start improving myself, by not cursing anymore.

2009-10-05T17:42:00.001+08:00

This song is nicee. Listen.

2009-10-05T17:12:00.000+08:00

It really hit me in the face today. I haven't realised all this while. Thanks for correcting me, though it really hurts during the first time. But after much thought, i had to let it in eventually.

You can always count on true friends. They help you weather every storm, they cheer you when you are down, and they chide you when you are wrong. Sometimes you get so preoccupied with life's mundane troubles that you do not find the time to tell your friends how much they mean to you. Friendship is a rare and precious commodity. If you have a friend, who truly understands you and accepts you despite your shortcomings, then you are the luckiest person in the world. I feel fortunate to have good friends. Over the years, I have realized the value of friendship and I feel blessed to have great friends.

Terima kasih kawan-kawanku. You know who you are.